I don’t know what to write – a bunch of thoughts instead

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It’s been a few days since I wrote my last post, and although I’ve been searching my mind for ideas on what to write, I haven’t come up with much.

So with the excuse of taking a U-turn around writer’s block, I’ll write down some random, non-fleshed out things that have been on my mind lately.

I wonder if not caring so much about certain people, their behaviours, or work and life related details are a product of growing up, or a form of nihilism instead.

I’ve been wondering what it means to love someone. Is accepting someone with their glaring flaws and investing into their well-being a form of sincere love, or punishing yourself, or both? What do you do when the rose you hold has spikes that have grown much longer than its fragrant petals? Do you let go? or keep holding on in hopes the flower petals will grow back soon? Is pain really the true cost of love?

Years and years have passed by, and the earth keeps spinning around its axis. Days and nights come and go. And so do people. So in this short amount of time that we have here, how do we make our existence meaningful? Do we just live, breathe, and explore the absurdity and beauty of life and this world? or do we focus hard to develop specialized skills to make others’ existences easier? I don’t know it yet, but a part of me wants to do both without compromising the other. A balance between selfishness and selflessness.

What does it mean to be vulnerable? to share your story, and your thoughts and feelings exactly as they are? Where you do draw the line between privacy to protect your sanity vs. sharing yourself to feel catharsis within yourself, bonded with others, and hopefully make someone’s existence easier? How much of it is too much or too little?

For a few days now I’ve been thinking of writing down some notes from my philosophy class on how to reason well, but I don’t know how to put my thoughts into words well. The lack of simplification of those ideas is just leading me to procrastinate tbh. Maybe I won’t write about it after all. Or I’ll find another way and do it…

Anyways, Red came out a week ago. I was surprised that a 10 minute long song can exist that can capture your attention for so long so well.

Dunno what else to write about…

I’ve been thinking I want to write something, but coming up with nothing. So here’s something at least 🙂


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